This is something I couldn't keep in.
I hate Apathy.
I hate how it is preying on so many people in society.
I hate how sometimes I even find myself settling into it's trap.
Apathy; a disease that causes one to just live life, not caring, fully unaware of the surroundings, and completely oblivious to who exactly they are.
Why in the world would you want to go even one day without asking yourself,
what can I do today to improve:
myself.
the way I live.
the world.
everyone is always shouting "we only have one life to live, so let's live it right!"
they don't actually live life.
just a day to day process of self-indulgence.
stagnant.
no progression.
I guess I have a particular issue with this, because I do not believe that it is my life to live.
I wasn't put on this earth to only search for ways to satisfy myself, for that is a never ending path of disappointment. However, I want to live my life for God, although, I am not always successful and have repeatedly fallen short, there is nothing greater than serving him. That sounds like a whole bunch of christian lingo strategically placed to make me sound like some righteous person, but if you could just hear the sound of my voice, or see the overwhelming joy that embodies itself in the glistening of my eyes when I speak of the unfathomable love of the God that I serve, you would see why nothing is greater than working for Him. My Savior didn't put me on this earth to wallow in my own filth, or find temporary joy in the meaningless activities of this world.
"Talk is cheap, like day dreams and other useless activities. Fear God instead"
Ecclesiastes 5:7
one of the biggest truths I have found, written by the wisest man that ever lived.
I'm sure it's worth something.
I wish I somehow had the power to make the whole world understand exactly what I am saying.
I wish I could erase all the things that society associates Christianity with; the hypocrites, the bible-thumpers, the pretenders, and the judgemental.
And just show you God's love, raw and unspoiled by the world.
have you feel what I feel.
see what I have seen.
know how much He is longing to build a relationship with you.
how grand His plan is for you.
how real He really is.
that there is so much more than the world that you find yourself in.
God doesn't need my help. He created the universe.
But it is an amazing grace that he wants my help in showing His love to the world.
I'm not going to miss out on that.
And there isn't one thing in my life that is more important.
at least, when I don't fail at putting Him first.
that is only the very tip of all I wish I could say.
God is love and love is Real
-Ashley.
